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Post by Theaxe on Dec 5, 2018 8:24:44 GMT -8
It seems my dreams are always romance-driven. They have been like that my entire life. All throughout my real life I craved having a great love, but I seemed to always miss out. As a teen I wanted a boyfriend, but could never get one. As an adult, all the wrong guys would want to be with me so I found myself alone most of my adult life.
I have to wonder if my ideal romance was created in my head, keeping me from actually finding realistic love. I will MD about it like a Hollywood romantic movie, and fast-forward all the details just to get to the great couple scenes of me and whoever it was at the time I MD'd about. A big trigger was music I could dance to. I'd MD in my bedroom, door closed, lights off, and actually dance as if someone was dancing with me. And don't get me started on the love scenes.
It took me a long time to meet my husband, and I married late in life. I blame MD for this. If I had just been okay with meeting someone who wasn't part of my MD creation, I might have had better luck in relationships.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 5, 2018 8:52:09 GMT -8
i have felt maybe my lack of interest in sex in general in real life might be due to the intensity and type in my daydreams. the fantasy has always been prefferd, the real life thing not reaaly enjoyed at all. tatally not in it with my past husband, but i always felt he was wanting more than the average person. maybe he could tell i just wasnt ever present for it? he always accused me of cheating...
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Post by ramone on Dec 5, 2018 14:44:50 GMT -8
I've honestly never had a boyfriend. I had at least a couple potential runner-up guys who could have been my boyfriend, but our bonding didn't last for a split second. Although, I was close friends with this obsessed guy for over a year, and he turned out to be dangerous, so I warned him to stop phoning me. Another one was thinking about starting a relationship with me, until he noticed that I was daydreaming in the midst of our conversation, and that I was shaking out of nervousness, so he turned it down an hour later. I really blamed it on my social disorder, but especially my maladaptive daydreaming. I simply wasn't concentrated enough to get closer to people.
So, whenever I have a crush on an actor I saw in a movie, music video or a series, I'd develop an imaginary relationship with them, having sexual fantasies involving their character whenever I'm laying awake on my bed, or even sitting at my computer while serfing the net. Most times, I feel very heartened and hurt to never have seen an existing relationship in my real life, and yet so very confused and frustrated as to why I still haven't met somebody by now. I'm already 32 years old. So, I wonder if I dropped the MDD and payed more attention to real people, I would hopefully meet someone whose actually interested in me.
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Post by thekirubavictor on May 22, 2021 4:31:25 GMT -8
My MD got romance driven since this February, when I developed feelings for this girl who I met a couple years ago via a mutual friend. When I found out she was committed to someone else, I was disappointed and it essentially took over my dreams where I had already lived an entire relationship with this girl. It almost hurts like an actual breakup for someone with MD, I feel. Maybe in the future, this romantic phase of my MD will pass.
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