Post by kitannaaaa on Jul 19, 2021 5:53:59 GMT -8
I was bullied since I was a kid by my schoolmates and family members for my skin colour. When I went to secondary school, I managed to get friends but still felt lonely because I don't feel 'connected' to them. I just can't fit in with anyone and thats the time when I probably started maladaptive daydreaming. I would daydream about people that I wish were my friends, things that I will do with them etc. I sometimes also daydream about people that I wish to be in a romantic relationship with. Since I have bigger body features and taller than most of the girls in my school, it made me feel weird to hang around them (I feel like I'm too old around them). They'll talk about memes, make up, anime and I will just sit in the corner feeling puzzled. Daydreaming was the only way for me to express myself genuinely but as time goes by, I started to feel even more lonely. These days, I find it hard to focus on any task that I do (work and home chores). I would be sitting in front of my laptop to do my work but then I unconsciously start daydreaming about someone walking up to my table and having a conversation with me. I feel even lonelier after I find myself doing maladaptive daydreaming. Things that I used to put my heart and time into have no significance for me now. I really don't know how to fill this void in me. Whenever I tell people around me about my problem about daydreaming but they will just brush them off and say that everyone daydream sometimes. I feel frusturated every time I hear that response because the way I daydream is effecting me emotionally and makes me to not focus on my task even for a short period of time. Please tell me that I am not the only one feeling this way. Also, if you have any methods to reduce maladaptive daydreaming, please share them with me. That would be so much appreciated!
Ps: English is not my first language so I'm really sorry if I made grammar mistakes or my points are unorganised. I hope you understand what I am trying to convey here...
Ps: English is not my first language so I'm really sorry if I made grammar mistakes or my points are unorganised. I hope you understand what I am trying to convey here...